I have been bad at writing lately, and I’m sorry for that. I’ve been feeling down again, and lately everything just feels like too much.

I had to stay home again for two weeks, and because of that I’ve been fired from work. I’m trying to stay positive and get through the days, but it’s been getting harder again. The thoughts of hurting myself have come back. I haven’t done anything, but it’s getting harder not to.

I’ve been keeping myself busy by getting through my last weeks at work and focusing on things around the house. Even today, I feel like staying in bed all day, and maybe I just might do that. I know it’s probably not the healthiest thing for me, but I also feel like I need to allow myself to have a day like this once in a while. I can’t keep forcing myself to get up every single day without giving myself a break.

I hope you guys are doing well. I’ll try to write more again soon.